I have been pondering several things lately because the last year has been truly amazing with many beautiful experiences and many challenges. It started off with the passing of my mother in January of 2012 and deciding while in the middle of writing my book Peace Be Still that I was going to hire a publicist and go on tour. I will share with you all that it takes a substantial amount of money to go on a book tour. I would say very few hit the big time on their first book. The thought comes to me should they really hit the big time on the first try? And what is the “BIG TIME” really?
Let me just say this. I have spent more money that I have made since going on tour. I have simplified my life so much so that I have been living with what I could put in my van starting in June of 2012 and have had the rest of my stuff in storage. As Justin and I traveled to 22 states on our tour of the United States we both gained tremendous perspective in our lives. In addition, I have grown a tremendous amount and have learned on a much greater scale to value myself. You see it was never really about the money in the first place but to Value yourself brings a world of value around you. There are many lessons I have learned in the last year and half and one of them is the fact that if I value myself on a deep level then a world will unfold that will value me! Because I value them and in turn value myself the world just unfolds proportionately.
In turn by this tremendous love that you gain in learning the value of who you are as a Child of God you in turn gain a perspective in knowing that you are always taken care of. You are always going to have what you need in Divine Timing and Divine order. So BIG TIME? I am already tremendous and so are all of you. Having the large house and cars does not make you amazing.. those things are by – products of an experience. There is nothing wrong with any of those beautiful things and ENJOY THEM! Just like Justin and I enjoyed traveling all over the country.
Here is the key Lesson.. if you value yourself and Value the Divine spark within you.. I can guarantee you that your world will un-fold and start preparing you for a life that is so amazing! Does that mean it does not come with lessons? Does that mean you will not have high stress? The answer to that is NO… as peaceful as I have gotten in my life I still have stress at times. Now the difference is that stress no longer rules my life as it did before. Recently, I have decided to go back and get a corporate job and find one that I will truly enjoy! So I have been offered a job as a Trainer and will be building a training department for a small company in Clearwater, Florida.. something I love! Building something, developing something and coaching others to finding success and these are the things that set me on FIRE! With that being said… I also last Thursday found out that I had to find a place to live rather fast because my friends I was renting a room from were being evicted from their home. A thousand voices went off in my head and all of those emotions made me feel a ton of different emotions. Was I stressed? YES! Was I experiencing Anxiety? YES! The key here is to remember that I was taken care of.. My EGO wanted to go in a million directions and even tried to give me a guilt trip for even doing all of this tour and leaving my last job over a year ago….What those voices didn’t realize is by not allowing myself to LIVE by not taking a risk I would have been stagnant. I would not have grown or learned the lessons I have learned. We cannot sit in a shelter and just wait for life to happen. It’s impossible to feel joy in life without allowing ourselves to experience life.. It’s impossible to learn how to ride a bike without falling down a few times. The question you have to ask yourself is the falling down part is that bad or is that AMAZING?!?! Those amazing times of falling down are the best experiences I have had.. Sure are the scary at times? YES! Do the make you feel 1000 or more emotions?!?! The answer is YES! However, is that not living? Allowing ourselves to experience living, experience our emotions. I would say a good portion of us are un-willing to experience life for what it is.. AN EXPERIENCE! All of us are waiting for that one big thing to happen for us but are un-willing to live or experience within the experiment of living.
I am truly blessed to have a place to stay and I am looking at new places to live to move on to the next chapter in my life.
I will leave you with this.. if you are feeling frustrated then there is probably a stagnant part of your life you are not looking at.. where are you afraid? Where do you need to maybe stretch a bit and look at taking a risk.. where is your 20 seconds of courage?!?! Remember you are always taking care of..follow your soul and it will guide you gracefully through this amazing existence.